You can’t change people 

What’s more offensive? When someone outrightly tells you they disagree with your ways or those who assure you they will act according to your wishes and yet do things differently behind your back? Then apologize when they get caught but continue to do things the way they want when you’re not around.

I am tired of feeling pissed and upset. I don’t appreciate people who are just lip service. I want sincere and truthful people in my life whom I know I can trust and count on. I’ve done all I can to communicate my concern and wishes for what I feel is best for my little one but it falls on deaf ears.

Neither can I take drastic measures to have my way lest I hurt people that I love. This is it. You can’t change people. They won’t change for you either. I am done letting other people’s actions antagonize and upset me. I don’t deserve this to feel like this. 

This is why you got to kill your emotions sometimes and be all nonchalant. Other people are going to take things to their own hands regardless of what you think and say even if you’re the mother. Deal with it, let it go and stop letting them dictate your mood.

9th

The end of June brings back many memories and I get mixed up whose birthday lies on twenty-something. Most of all I almost but not quite forget it’s today… The ninth year since we’ve gotten together. 

It’s amazing how time flies. Nope we didn’t celebrate. There wasn’t a need to. He wished me and gave me hugs and kisses. That’s all I need today. ꒰·͡ुˑ·ཻू꒱ෆ⃛

  

Rare Homecook

I cooked for R on Father’s Day for his first celebration as a father. That’s not something I do often.

It surprised me that I really enjoyed the cooking process and that’s strange because I thought it’s crazy to have to work all day and come back to prepare dinner but it felt exciting to do so probably cause I don’t do it everyday. I wanted to know what my food would taste like. And it makes me happy that R likes it. 

Tokyo: Harajuku, Tokyo Towers

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My haircut in this salon called Bazoo in Fujimidai where our airbnb accomodation lies. Such a warm and awesome experience getting a haircut in Tokyo. The service is next level and I really like the haircut. Despite my poor Japanese, the stylist was able to grasp what I want and deliver the haircut.
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And I had the crepe again.
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Hitting Harajuku
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Harajuku feels kinda like Bugis street in SG. The apparels sold here are relatively cheaper than those you see in Shinjuku and Shibuya. You’ll get to see street peeps with bolder fashion too.

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It wasn't in our plan to visit the Tokyo Tower. I wasn't expecting to sightsee much in Tokyo but Kazuki offered to drive us there and boy, the Tokyo Tower is gorgeous at night. It's a romantic kind of sightseeing with the cold wind and all. I'd recommend everyone in Tokyo to visit it at night!
It wasn’t in our plan to visit the Tokyo Tower. I wasn’t expecting to sightsee much in Tokyo but Kazuki offered to drive us there and boy, the Tokyo Tower is gorgeous at night. It’s a romantic kind of sightseeing with the cold wind and all. I’d recommend everyone in Tokyo to visit it at night!

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The power went out right before we snap a photo together! Zanen.
The power went out right before we snap a photo together! Zanen.

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In Kazuki's kuruma
In Kazuki’s kuruma
Yudai and Kazuki, sashiburi~
Yudai and Kazuki, sashiburi~
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They treat us a pretty amazing dinner with lots of beer and sashimi

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Effort counts

Anyone can fall in love and enjoy a period of extreme passion. The challenging part comes on working to make a relationship last, not two years, three years but a life time.

These recent years, I’ve learned that-

It’s hard to move on from things that didn’t end with proper closures, especially when it mattered to you.

Never let things that matter to you pass no matter how insignificant it may be to others. Don’t let something that hurt you slip through to history when you haven’t gotten the proper closure and outcome you deserve. If you really want to move on, you should seek the answer that you deserve.

Ignoring and trying not to think about it doesn’t help.

Tokyo! Shinjuku

First day touring Tokyo and we had to go to Shinjuku to fulfil my Final Fantasy dream but before that, we dropped by Tsukiji Fish Market for some sashimi.

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Tsujiki Fish Market is a short walk from Tsukijishijo station. Not that we were keen to see how they sell fishes in the morning and we obviously couldn’t wake up for those but what we really wanted was to try fresh sashimi from the stalls near the fish market. And goodness, you can eat these sashimi without shoyu and they taste great too. I ABSOLUTELY love the taste of the raw scallop. The squid made me a little irky but everything else tasted awesomely different from any sashimi I ever had in Singapore (like obviously!)
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I like the photos he took of me walking from behind. ^^
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We asked for directions from these kind souls. Although they had no idea where Artnia is, they took out their cellphones to locate the place and even walked us near there quite a distance! Amazing how strangers can be so helpful. Here’s us with a sea of host ads as backdrop.

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THAT MOMENT WHEN WE SAW THIS SIGNAGE FROM AFAR.
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ONE PHOTO NOT ENOUGH.
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THE HUBBY ALSO GOT TO BE IN PHOTO.
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inside the premises of Square-Enix building, there’s this really zen fountain sitting area. I so wanna work here already and have my bento lunch here with the gentle breeze. ❤
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Another shot with the building’s glass exterior
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Picture with the logo!
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With this logo, 1 photo just isn’t enough.
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I WAS HERE!!!!
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IMMERSED COMPLETELY INTO MY SURROUNDINGS
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OFFICIAL POSTERS
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FAT CHOCOBOS
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MOOGLES
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CACTUARS
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TONBERRIESSSS
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CHIBI KEYCHAINS.. HOHO I GOT THE WHOLE SET.
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MATERIA CHOCOLATE
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I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THIS IS.
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EVERYONE’S FAVE MALE PROTAGONIST EXCEPT MINE.
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BRAVELY DEFAULT SHIRTS. SO PRETTY I WANNA GET THEM BUT IT’S 7000YEN AND I HAVEN’T EVEN GOT MY HANDS ON THE GAME SO…NOPE.
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I SO WANNA BRING HOME SOME GLOWING MATERIA.
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FIGURINES FIGURINES
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SOLD OUT FIGURINES
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NOCTIS FRAGRANCE, ENUFF SAID.
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CHIBI FIGURINES.. TOO BAD I AM NOT INTO THE CHIBI KAWAII ONES. I WANT REALISTIC SQUALL FIGURINES PLS!
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BRAVELY DEFAULT SKETCHES. THEY HAVE SO MANY BD MERCHANDISES.
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THERE WAS A CRYSTAL HANGING IN THE AIR. FF IS NOT FF WITHOUT CRYSTALS
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SOUNDTRACKS :3 YOU CAN LISTEN TO ANY IN THE CAFE,

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WHAT THE HUBBY ORDERED
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I WAS FORCED TO EAT CHOCOLATE FOR HIS PHOTOGRAPHY PLEASURES.
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THE MENU WILL INTEREST YOU IF YOU’RE INTO FF
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I ORDERED A STANDARD POTION 😀
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EVEN THE FLOWERS BLOOMING OUTSIDE ARTNIA LOOKS ZEN
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LOOTS. LOOTS.

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Ladies advertising something we think is Pachinko.

We caught Shinjuku Swan at Toho Cinemas; movies are expensive in Japan!

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CIMG1220 - fb We caught Shinkuju Swan in Toho Cinemas. Movies are expensive in Japan!

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Roaming Shinjuku

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Me getting a crepe.
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The joy of receiving a crepe in Tokyo.
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A handy selfie prop for the birthday person.
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So.. R wants to go to a host club badly but there aren’t any friendly hosts that welcomed us at all except a really friendly lady boy who asked if we would like to have drinks and fun together. We feel extremely warm by her hospitality and decided to hit the lady boy pub aka ‘Okama’ bar.
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This is the lady boy who brought us here. They were extremely yasashii and we had so much fun. An originally planned one hour session became two hours and we also bought them drinks. ^^” It’s 5000 yen per person for an hour by the way.
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She is so pretty. We just couldn’t tell at all.
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That’s their Mama in the middle in green.

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R was drunk. We had to stagger our way in Shinjuku back to our accommodation.
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