Sometimes I feel really frustrated and upset of my dire state and I get disappointed with myself, of the choices that I’ve made that put me in the state that I’m in today. I want to laugh at myself, you deserve it. Whose to blame but myself? 

Suck it up bitch. Think about all the people whose worse out there to try to console yourself. That’s all the weakling that you are can do. Arghhh


I just wrote a pretty long entry and then read about the grief that’s going on around the world where innocent children are dying unjustly – felt like whatever I had written was so trivial – I deleted it.

I’ve grown up to be a rebel towards Christ and sometimes I really wanna ask God if there is even one – why would he allow all these tragic to happen? Why would he give the bliss of having a child and then allow the child to be ruthlessly taken away from the parents? I am unable to digest all these tragic happening and everyone gives praise to God still but what has he done that deserves praising at all..?

Stomach flu day #6

I’ve taken my body for granted, haven’t I?  Now I just want to be back to normal, well and fine – learn to eat my meals properly and live my days without feeling like my body’s inadequate to keep up.

I want my healthy body back. 

Because she competes with no one, no one can compete with her.

– Lao Tzu

Battling the stomach flu since Wednesday. Finally feeling a little better to rant to my blog how bad this has been. 

All that fever, vomiting and diarrhoea were terrible.

My weekends… went deflated like that. 

Shit comes together to stir you. You’ve got to conquer them. You have the strength to do it. The frustration will try to bring you down. You’ve got to calm yourself down and overcome this. Take a deep breath. You can do it. 

When your man loves you right, you will learn your self worth and love yourself better.

It’s a recent realisation that I seem to love myself better these days because he showed me I am worth loving despite how lousy I see myself sometimes. 

Rू(ʚ̴̶̷́ .̠ ʚ̴̶̷̥̀ ू)